It's been a mixed up kind of week - good and bad in equal measure. The sun has been shining and the added luxury of a bank holiday weekend as well. Unfortunately the weather has caused a lot of people who probably shouldn't, to expose mountains of white flesh! I always find this hysterical but a sure sign our summer is on its way. It's been a bit of a long time coming but I'm really hoping for a good one.
Yesterday we briefly popped into town and I seized the opportunity to nip into my local department store to smell, touch, and spray all the beautiful perfumes - this is my guilty pleasure and I always do it. There is something kind of special about a spray of the most expensive scent for free, I think 'free' makes it smell better as well to be honest. Jon refused point blank to come in so I knew I had to be quick so I opted for my favourite - Jimmy Choo - quick spray and out smelling gorgeous or so I thought......
I was greeted by a sniff and he curled up his nose like he had just emptied the cat litter tray. I was slightly irked to say the least but its my fault I should have realised. He finds most smells over-powering and I was promptly informed it was not a pleasant feeling. On the way home he asked for all the windows in the car to be opened and he held his nose. When I complained I was told it smelt like 'toothache' - how on earth am I supposed to translate that into my one dimensional brain? I therefore decided to leave my secret spraying to when I'm out with my daughters or alone. I ran a deep bubble bath and washed the whole lot off - so all I smelt of afterwards was soap.
These things after twelve-ish years shouldn't upset me really now, but they do. I miss air freshener, especially those foot ones for the car! I miss the plug in ones indoors and I miss the expensive room sprays at Christmas. I still use them occasionally when Jon is away though. I wonder do other Aspies hate some smells too? Or is it just mine. I love the smell of bread cooking or the smell of my ironing (when I do it) or the smell of dogs paws? (Yes it's strange but true) smells are a major part of my world including posh scent. Summer barbecues are another thing guaranteed to make me want one but its not so kind to my washing.
How would we both feel if He lived as me for a week and vice versa? Who would cope better? This is a subject that fascinates me. I don't think he could cope in my world, I think he would find it boring and if I had to spend time in his world maybe I'd totally loose it. So what is the better option? Neither of us REALLY understand how it is for the other and if we worry too much it would all become a chore. If I had to plan everything and always did the same things over and over again I would go crazy. Jon and I just work, its a carefully balanced mix of crazy and consideration. Most marriages are like this - my parents have two lounges! ....but I won't go that far not yet anyway.
Today I watched The Life of Pi, I was very impressed and surprisingly moved. The bond formed between Pi and the tiger was beautiful, it has made me long for a bond like that. The kind of connection you get with an animal but our cat Horace has a bond with Jon! They are inseparable and Horace has defiantly calmed him down.
I spent a lot of time this week trying to down size my wardrobe and all the lovely colourful things I have collected over the years. I did manage to fill a bin liner with unwearables but in doing so found lots of things I haven't worn in ages - Including some thinner cardigans. these needed cheering up so in the car we got and took a little trip to HandMade Studios in Rowlands Castle. A couple of 'bought' felt pins later and I have a revived summer wardrobe. I am very proud of my clothes and have rather a lot of them. I love getting up in the morning and choosing what to wear. Mixing and matching items and hopefully choosing a different outfit everyday. Somehow it's me and yes it maybe shallow but its the one thing that I won't let my fibromyalgia spoil. The tablets have made me gain a little weight which I am trying to loose but my heels, skirts and skinny jeans are staying as are my perfumes but just for when I go to work in future - as it's to expensive to just wash off......
Today has been a long day x
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